Quert – Apple. The gentle, graceful loving energy harvested at the last New Moon. Living with her since then she has challenged me, not quite settled with me. She is too gentle.
Brighid stepped in the other day. She too is love. Not always graceful – but she showed me love is strong. Love is not sentimental slosh. Love can be deeply fiery, as is her love. Not a love that pussy-foots around us, but a love which challenges, digs out new spaces for Her within.
Fire is also Light, blazing its way through our darkeness. As Brighid gives way to the Cailleach Her Light will still shine on through the winter.
The Cailleach has been calling me these past few days.
Her time is approaching. The Hag of the Hills, the Highlands.
She is a Dark Goddess, the one who rules the winter. We meet her at Samhain, not far away now.
She is the ruler of winter, and her sister Brighid the ruler of the lighter spring and summer days, yet they come to me as two faces of the One.
Brighis came to me first in a deeply personal way as the Scar-Faced One, showing me first Her ugly, scarred side before transforming into a light, beautiful faced Goddess. The Dark Scarred One, whether we call her Cailleach or Brighid, is not to be feared. She will lead us through the darkening days of autumn and on through winter, before showing us her Light in the spring.
May you know Her blessings through the dark days.
Quert (Apple) is traditionally about love, healing, cleansing, the underworld. Some of these came through as I harvested the essence from my Quert Ogham stave tonight. She came to me with a beautiful lightness and grace, dancing through my body. I could smell her, sense her sweet juice washing me inside and out.
Rather than taking me to the underworld, she took me back in time to younger me – a me in shame, feeeling defiled by years of sexual abuse. Her cleansing reached back in time – unprocessed trauma memories continue to live within us until they are processed, placed in the past where they belong. She is a gentle yet powerful ally.
I send her out now as a blessing to all who particularly need her cleansing from shame.
Ogham Coll (Hazel) had some surprises as I harvested her from my ogham stave today. She is Inspiration, collector of Wisdom. She bridges the unconscious and the conscious, making connections.
An earth-bound Capricorn, I found her delightful. She danced through my conscious and unconscious being, showing me that we do not always have to plummet to the absolute depths and darkness of our being in order to tap into her Inspiration, her Wisdom.
I can see her smiling at me, ‘Lighten up’. ‘Dance’.
To all who need to Dance, no matter the depths of their Despair and Darkness, I send her out to you now.
Harvesting the essence from my Tinne ogham stave earlier was a powerful experience. Tinne is Unconditional Love, Balance.
Tinne can be experienced as the love of a mother, or a very masculine love. For me today, it was a strong masculine love which came through, a warm and all-enveloping love.
The Holly King of the darker half of the year, but also the love of Jesus came through as well, totally unexpectedly. This love brooks no compromise. This love is pure. This love will strip away all that poses as pseudo love. Pretend love. Sugary love. This love is raw, is real.
As soon as I held my ogham stave for harvesting, I knew this was an essence I stand greatly in need of right now. Gaslighting from one direction as to the ‘happy times’ we had on holiday when I was growing up; another person betraying my trust in other ways, yet who would claim love for me; these are not love. Not the Love the Holly King and the Christ bring us.
Abuse can pose as love. The Holly King and the Christ offer true love, unconditional love – and ask that we grow in this in how we in turn love.
Tonight I send this essence out to all those who need this Love, and who are tired of behaviour posing as love.
Today was the harvesting of Duir from my ogham stave, a couple of days late following the New Moon because of being away on a therapy course.
Duir, sacred to the druids, is a tree of immense strength. It is also a gateway tree, gateway to inner truth, inner knowledge. After attuning with the Celtic Reiki essence Schumann for rebalancing, I asked permission to harvest the essence of the Duir which gave my ogham being.
Immediately I sensed great heat from the ogham stave, and felt drawn to press it into my hara/dantien. It rested there for some time, a fire burning brightly but steadily.
Drawn into the fire, I passed through this oak fire and found myself at the sacred fire of Brighid – a warm welcome from Her, welcoming me home to Her. Resting a while, I sensed when it was time to leave. Her fire came back with me, a fire in my hara. Strength. Courage for the journey ahead.
Now I send this essence out to any who need. It is an essence of warm strength, of welcome from Brighid.
Huathe. As the May blossom cascades from the Hawthorn, there is protection and sanctuary to be found for those brave enough to draw close to her thorns.
Traditionally associated with healing of the physical heart, she reaches out too with a potent balm for healing of the inner heart, the emotional core of our being. She may pierce us with her thorns, but it is in order that she might draw us in for healing.
A safe place when we are in need of refuge.
A place where we can learn her boundaries.
Are you brave enough to embrace her thorns for healing? She would like to offer you her balm, too.
Balm for your heart. Your soul.
This post is in gratitude to Bear, who has walked with me longer than I knew.
Bear came to me around 5 years ago in a shamanic journey/meditation. When I trained in Reiki Drum a couple of years ago 2 male black Bear came to me.
Today in therapy I faced up to some truly sadistic behaviour from my parents as a child. Bear came and flanked me on either side as I worked through this, leading me gently away and above a body in extreme pain.
Bear communicated he had been with me then, had been with me throughout my life. My sense of gratitude to Bear is deeper than any words can express. Thank you Bear.
I have found much to inspire me at The Path of She, having first come across Karen via her book ‘Tale of the Lost Goddess’, the story of a womans search for meaning in her life, and the journey inwards and her meeting with Hecate.
Today Karen shared a powerful meditation for meeting and uniting with the Green Man, the lover god. The meditation can be found here
Tonight I will delve deeply into this.
Karen has also written with great honesty and integrity about her first encounter with Him for Witches & Pagans, also worth a read for the Beltane Mysteries.
May your Beltane be blessed with the joy of Him.
In preparation for the New Moon tomorrow, I harvested the essence from my wee Ash (Nuin) Ogham. An essence of deep integration, Nuin offers balance and integration; a place where physical and spiritual meet, past and present.
How I experienced the harvesting of this essence was of a pull deep within my hara and solar plexus areas; a pull inwards, but which then extended outwards into my aura.
In unprocessed trauma the past remains present, and I sensed a reaching from this essence into all the yet dissociated emotional parts of me, a call for them to become integrated within me.
A few months ago I harvested the essence from a lovely, very gracious Ash who dwells across the field from where I live. She is Flo-Ash, a tree who offered me comfort and an outlet for grief when a beloved dog of mine died. So Ash/Nuin is about integration of emotions, from the past and the present.
Tonight I send the Ogham-Nuin essence newly harvested out to those in search of integration of emotions, and of integration of dissociated parts of their being. With Nuin I know this work, this deeper integration, is truly possible.